haven been blogging for a very long while, been busy with school and during holiday has been slacking slacking and going out with hubby. anyways not here to blog about that.

hubby and me went for our 2nd round of tanning :D hehe. here are some photos. haha nothing much to write about. the usual stuff, but after that we went plaza sing to find yixuan to take thumbdrive from her. haha. xuan say she wanna go tanning on sunday! haha. so i going to see if my sunburn is okay then i go... if not okay dun go le. haha than we went to eat or rather hubby went to eat his dinner at my favourite duck rice store hehe, then we sat at the void deck before hubby sending me home :) teased him alittle before going home! haha. here are some photos. :D

sunday 23 aug. tanning with xuan was fun :) then after tanning i went to take my lunch at hubby's work place haha. got burned with a bikini line on my back but it doesnt itch. so it was fine. and it turned into a tan haha. and i planned another trip with xuan and hubby for wednesday.

wednesday 26 aug. xuan didnt turn up because she had work to complete in school and then i went tanning with hubby. meet at 10.30 and went down to sentosa together. :) had cake for breakfast. lolx. i baked it. then we tanned till like 12ish 1, took a couple of photos there. i was like tanning all the way while hubby had his swims. haha. then we went of to vivo to relax awhile. we left sentosa easily because the weather didnt look good. and when we got to vivo, we had carls jr for lunch :D haha. then we slack at the balcony. teased hubby haha. then took a couple of photos then went off, hubby got a hair cut from serangoon central then he send me home! haha. went i got home, i saw how red i was man... like lobster lolx but this time front and back haha.
friday 28 aug. when to cityhall to meet hubby to go walk walk, then had lunch at subway, went to carrefour to do my field research, went to the arcade, left suntec to go to his work place. got to his work place, had lots of fun teasing each other, slacked longer at the work place, then hubby had to start working so i left half an hour later.

i planned another trip to sentosa... this time with hubby and my group mates, joyce, huitian and muijoo this coming wednesday haha. yeah tanning... then i might be buying a new bikini. :D go islander and see first. sophia say there got affordable ones. like 20 to 30 dollars with size somemore. hehe

BLOG NEEDS TO REVIVE... haha.
okay here to just do a stupid retarded revival of my blog.
nothing better to do anyways.

i wan to go to australia melbourne for a photography study trip but my parents cant afford the trip because its way too expensive. :( never mind, im thinking of getting a part time job because of our financials. we'll see how it goes. thinking of working at subway with hubby even though the pay isnt that much but at least it give me a little extra allowance and i can pass some to my parents too. haha.

ive been going to aloy's school studio to help him out with his work.. and ive been helping his classmate out too. her name is called xuan :D cute girl. she says she is a guy in school and a girl at home. haha. my darling "boyfriend" if you can say so! haha. anyways. it been fun helping them out with work. something different from what i usually do other than the photoshoppingg part which alot of them are like super noob at, even the teacher is a noob at! haha. i can solve a problem when the teacher couldnt. OOPS! haha. okas moving on... his classmates are nice people. fun to hang out with esp, xuan, michael, gavin, syazni, kim and a few others. but the problem abt me not liking to go there is HER! mun yee, aloy's ex. she is so bitchy i tell you i cant stand it. not even aloy and xuan can... she just thinks she is like the queen of the world. okay enough abt her. lolx. ive been hubby's delivery service for the past week that ive been travelling down for him! haha, DINNER is what i service. and ATM provider too haha. but its okay. he do spend money on me! this is consider even.

yesterday, was suppose to be their submission date. so a group of them were rushing for deadline, so was xuan. then xuan msged me at 5 in the morning asking if she could come over to my place because she needed help with the photoshop part, which i offered to help her the day before, but didnt manage my time properly that i was helping hubby more than i was even helping her. but no one is to be blamed. so she came over and i helped her. we went to school together when hubby msged me because he was so pissed abt the extention which i think wasnt fair as well but we cant do anything abt it. than we reached, then relax awhile then he submitted his model. then we slacked and i had lunch and we left after awhile. haha. we went to PS before hubby went for work.. as usual when i got to subway, i get my free cookies from hubby :D then use my laptop for awhile, accompany hubby for his dinner then i went home le.

oh yeah and just today, xuan ask me if i wanted to go suntanning. oh yeah.... im going :D hahah. yes ah! finally can tan properly and then after that going to clarke quay subway to eat my lunch and to see hubby! hubby is doing part time there :D im so happy can, im going to get my NEW TAN TMR! yes... im going to wear my turquoise bikini top with army fbts! haha. i know weird combination but who cares. haha :D oh and when i told hubby i was going tanning with her, he said, you and her like best friends! haha. isnt that a good thing hahaha.

another song to express my feeling...
jordan sparks- battle field.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battle-field

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

arhhhh... this song holds alot of meaning!
something to do with aloysius and me.


katy perry's thinking of you!
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes.

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

12 april... my uncle passed away yesterday morning. my heart felt so heavy and i miss him alot. he was genuinely a nice man and a good father. i know he loved singapore and the chinese culture alot. i remember hearing how happy he was when he was served tea at the tea ceremony of my cousin's wedding in december last year.

he opened his house to us when we visited his family in shanghai about 3 yrs ago while he was still stationed there in citibank. we spent christmas with his family that year. he's family, and losing family hurts.

there really is nothing like a sudden loss to make you take a double look at what you have. the last i saw him was when we went over to my uncle's for reunion dinner. he wasn't feeling too well and left early. a few days later, news spread that he was diagnosed with leukemia.

barely 3 months later, he's left us. i cannot even begin how heartwrenching it must be for his family. my family were at his wake last night and i noticed how his eldest son would always turn to look at uncle richard's picture. for a while, he left his table of friends and walked towards uncle richard's picture and stood before it and stared at it. my aunt, looked so worn out. my mom gave her a hug and she told us she'd been crying for days but she'd be okay. it worries me that she might fall ill.

13 april... today was a long day. first to uncle richard's wake, then to a church for his memorial service, and then on to the crematorium. today was also tough. i found myself tearing at each place we go to pay our respects to uncle richard. at the crematorium when i said my last goodbyes, there was where i really let go of my tears and stop pretending like i could hold it all back.

his hearse drove past DBS in shenton way, where the staff of the bank stood along the sides to pay their last respects to uncle richard. it was quite a sight.

the eulogies were almost too painful to listen to. one of his friends talked about how he first met his wife, and how a couple of days before his passing, she was by his side holding his hand and wiping his tears away. that is love, the real deal. seeing how broken she was, you could really see how much she really loved him.

that's what breaks my heart the most, lost love. a wife who has lost her husband. children who have lost their father. things like that just leave a huge void in your heart that cannot be completely replaced by love from others.

as many have said, time will heal. on the days when we look back, we're going to see his smile and hear his laugh, and it's going to hurt a little. but we'll keep on, simply because we have to.

he sadness in the eyes of the people i met there at the wake was haunting. see uncle richard, see how much you mean to all of us? we'll miss you.

rest in peace, uncle richard.