mel baby, why did you have to leave us at such a young age... we need you around. i need you, you are so talented, beautiful and humorous and we all enjoy the sweet crazy company. im missing your presence and company. theres so many things i wanna tell you but i dont get the chance to do so anymore. there will no longer be a smoke break that you and i would pour out our feelings and know how much we have in common. MEL! i'll never forget you nor will i forget the memories we had together in the past 2 yrs. :) i love you, my dear with the sweetest smile and funniest humor. where ever you are my dear, rest in peace because you are in great hands now. the lord will protect you from any hurt or danger. thy shall never take one for granted in life. you have been a GREAT CLOSE FRIEND and a wonderful amazing talented artist that everyone will remember. mel baby we'll meet again when my time is up. i know you'll be waiting for me and everyone else you know where ever you are:) you taught me the value of a friendship i'll never forget and your'll always be in my heart mel. i dont know if you can see this,if you are watching over me. i just want to let you know that i'll always love you and miss you. and you deserved the best in your new life for having a kind hearted soul that we all appreciate.


A friendly classmate, a wonderful friend, a listening ear, a talented artist, a chatter box and the closest friend i ever had that really knew how i felt because we both experience the same thing but she decided to take her life. but i pray that the lord will forgive her for taking her life but to embrace her with the love she actually deserve all this while that she thought/ never felt. friends is all you need, mel. i wish i could have given you one last HUG and had one last chat/laughter with you. its kills me not knowing why you actually took your life but its part and parcel of life, life has to go on for the rest of us. REST IN PEACE mel deardear. xoxo.

i feel so useless when my bf has problems at home and i cant comfort him or do anything. all i can do is to worry about him. my heart just tells me i need to do something about it but i dunno what to do. Im just too confused. his parents always argue then this time round it affects him, and i feel so bad and pitiful for my baby because i dont want him to suffer from the pain his parent's argument puts him through. I just wanna do something. Someone help me please. God help me, please, i seek the answer to help me be at peace

haven been blogging for a very long while, been busy with school and during holiday has been slacking slacking and going out with hubby. anyways not here to blog about that.

hubby and me went for our 2nd round of tanning :D hehe. here are some photos. haha nothing much to write about. the usual stuff, but after that we went plaza sing to find yixuan to take thumbdrive from her. haha. xuan say she wanna go tanning on sunday! haha. so i going to see if my sunburn is okay then i go... if not okay dun go le. haha than we went to eat or rather hubby went to eat his dinner at my favourite duck rice store hehe, then we sat at the void deck before hubby sending me home :) teased him alittle before going home! haha. here are some photos. :D

sunday 23 aug. tanning with xuan was fun :) then after tanning i went to take my lunch at hubby's work place haha. got burned with a bikini line on my back but it doesnt itch. so it was fine. and it turned into a tan haha. and i planned another trip with xuan and hubby for wednesday.

wednesday 26 aug. xuan didnt turn up because she had work to complete in school and then i went tanning with hubby. meet at 10.30 and went down to sentosa together. :) had cake for breakfast. lolx. i baked it. then we tanned till like 12ish 1, took a couple of photos there. i was like tanning all the way while hubby had his swims. haha. then we went of to vivo to relax awhile. we left sentosa easily because the weather didnt look good. and when we got to vivo, we had carls jr for lunch :D haha. then we slack at the balcony. teased hubby haha. then took a couple of photos then went off, hubby got a hair cut from serangoon central then he send me home! haha. went i got home, i saw how red i was man... like lobster lolx but this time front and back haha.
friday 28 aug. when to cityhall to meet hubby to go walk walk, then had lunch at subway, went to carrefour to do my field research, went to the arcade, left suntec to go to his work place. got to his work place, had lots of fun teasing each other, slacked longer at the work place, then hubby had to start working so i left half an hour later.

i planned another trip to sentosa... this time with hubby and my group mates, joyce, huitian and muijoo this coming wednesday haha. yeah tanning... then i might be buying a new bikini. :D go islander and see first. sophia say there got affordable ones. like 20 to 30 dollars with size somemore. hehe

BLOG NEEDS TO REVIVE... haha.
okay here to just do a stupid retarded revival of my blog.
nothing better to do anyways.

i wan to go to australia melbourne for a photography study trip but my parents cant afford the trip because its way too expensive. :( never mind, im thinking of getting a part time job because of our financials. we'll see how it goes. thinking of working at subway with hubby even though the pay isnt that much but at least it give me a little extra allowance and i can pass some to my parents too. haha.

ive been going to aloy's school studio to help him out with his work.. and ive been helping his classmate out too. her name is called xuan :D cute girl. she says she is a guy in school and a girl at home. haha. my darling "boyfriend" if you can say so! haha. anyways. it been fun helping them out with work. something different from what i usually do other than the photoshoppingg part which alot of them are like super noob at, even the teacher is a noob at! haha. i can solve a problem when the teacher couldnt. OOPS! haha. okas moving on... his classmates are nice people. fun to hang out with esp, xuan, michael, gavin, syazni, kim and a few others. but the problem abt me not liking to go there is HER! mun yee, aloy's ex. she is so bitchy i tell you i cant stand it. not even aloy and xuan can... she just thinks she is like the queen of the world. okay enough abt her. lolx. ive been hubby's delivery service for the past week that ive been travelling down for him! haha, DINNER is what i service. and ATM provider too haha. but its okay. he do spend money on me! this is consider even.

yesterday, was suppose to be their submission date. so a group of them were rushing for deadline, so was xuan. then xuan msged me at 5 in the morning asking if she could come over to my place because she needed help with the photoshop part, which i offered to help her the day before, but didnt manage my time properly that i was helping hubby more than i was even helping her. but no one is to be blamed. so she came over and i helped her. we went to school together when hubby msged me because he was so pissed abt the extention which i think wasnt fair as well but we cant do anything abt it. than we reached, then relax awhile then he submitted his model. then we slacked and i had lunch and we left after awhile. haha. we went to PS before hubby went for work.. as usual when i got to subway, i get my free cookies from hubby :D then use my laptop for awhile, accompany hubby for his dinner then i went home le.

oh yeah and just today, xuan ask me if i wanted to go suntanning. oh yeah.... im going :D hahah. yes ah! finally can tan properly and then after that going to clarke quay subway to eat my lunch and to see hubby! hubby is doing part time there :D im so happy can, im going to get my NEW TAN TMR! yes... im going to wear my turquoise bikini top with army fbts! haha. i know weird combination but who cares. haha :D oh and when i told hubby i was going tanning with her, he said, you and her like best friends! haha. isnt that a good thing hahaha.

another song to express my feeling...
jordan sparks- battle field.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battle-field

One word turns into a
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for